Bad at Introductions - Jamie / Avalyn Ode

So, as it says above-- I stink at introductions. Let's get this out of the way, I'm a noob at LARPing (noob at KR, and noob at all of this). But I've never felt as welcome as I had my first time at Knight Realms in April 2013. So to you all, first thing I need to say is simply: "thank you".

I've recommended KR to all my friends, especially the ones who are nervous about going. I'd coax them by saying that I was terrified at a point, but it got better just diving in. If you haven't met me yet-- I'm social to a degree. Less so, when I'm nervous. So, being there at KR really did a number on everything I'd ever understood about LARPing, going outside, or well-- just simply talking or opening up to people. It reminded me of what it's like immersing oneself into a new system, like when I first experienced college away from my hometown and just living alone. I loved it. And I suppose I'm late in the game registering to this forum now, but I figured it would be a good idea to get to know people on here. Also, so that I can get my questions answered without directly asking officials :whistle: . (I'm kidding, for those of you who can't read sarcasm through text... and/or smileys :dry: )

//clears throat

Seriously though, I suppose-- my biggest fear is that I as a person, not simply just as Avalyn Ode, but as Jamie, that I will be forgotten among the many because of one missed event. It's pathetic, but it's the yearning for reassurance that I will keep being social, relaxed and anxiety-free, instead of becoming this inward, passive-aggressive player. And I hate getting so personal, seeing as this is my first topic, but hey, I'm bad at introductions (remember?). I think everyone has a fear of being forgotten or lost, or not making their mark on the world before leaving it. That's how I see Avalyn as, or well, my character. She's fresh off the boat (and I'm not being racist, seeing as I'm Asian) and OOG I guess I worry she won't make a name for herself or be as brave as I wanted her to be, because of my own personal anxieties. But I'm getting over them, slowly-- yet surely.

I wonder how many of you feel about integrating the self with the IG self? Do you enjoy testing yourself? For example, being afraid of the darkness, yet deliberately making your IG character enjoy it. Ha, the philosophy of LARPing.

Anyway, I've lost track of what I was trying to talk about originally. Which was: "Hi, I'm Jamie. Look out for me, I'm a 5'3, Chinese female, who walks around looking like Toph from Avatar: The Last Airbender" (no joke, there's a photo of me in the April 2013 album as proof.)

It's nice to meet you all, and I want to say (again)-- thanks for being so awesome towards new players, it's an honor to be part of Knight Realms. :blush:

Jamie J wrote: Seriously though, I suppose-- my biggest fear is that I as a person, not simply just as Avalyn Ode, but as Jamie, that I will be forgotten among the many because of one missed event. :

Quite the opposite. Missing an event resulted in discussions of whether you were going to be there, both in game and out. We were sad you weren't there, both during our parties and during some particularly nasty fights.

Hope you'll be back soon!

Oh yeah, and you should have them put the picture of you at the April event up as your avatar.

Jamie J wrote: I wonder how many of you feel about integrating the self with the IG self? Do you enjoy testing yourself? For example, being afraid of the darkness, yet deliberately making your IG character enjoy it. Ha, the philosophy of LARPing.

I am horrendously afraid of water. Two events ago I ran into the lake and fought in it. Yes. I enjoyed it a lot.

Jamie, you can only be forgotten if no one remembers and I am happy to say that many of us still remember who you are. :cool:

Hello, I'm Justin, I'm a New Player Marshall who's bad with names and worse with putting them to faces. If there's anything you need, feel free to send me or any of the other new player Marshall's a PM.

April 2012 was my first event ever. I had never been LARPing before, and just started playing Tabletop games. I was so scared when I first got there, but after my second mod, I knew I was coming back.

As for the whole IG OOG self thing: I like sleep. Very much. Justin knew that becoming a Witch Hunter and guardsman was a bad idea for my sleep schedule. However, I also like to make my characters suffer. Because of this, I'll put them into situations that I think will yield interesting RP. Sometimes it's as simple as overreacting to what a Grumblegut says after Main Mod, and it leads to worlds of trouble for Augustus, and loads if fun for me.

I think the reason I LARP is to take a break from reality and my own mind.

I'm glad you enjoyed your first event, and I look forward to seeing you in the future.

Hi there!!

I really love the "Do you incorporate aspects of your own personality into your character's persona" discussion.

I feel like this is one of my weaknesses. I usually wind up making characters that are just "ME", only moreso. When I first made my character Ambrosius, I created him as a bard so that I'd be forced to actually play an instrument. But then I very easily slipped into my usual "Craig" personality, and kept leaving my guitar back in the tent. So I used my free character "re-roll" to re-make the same character as a Ranger. (Same name, Same personality, Same player, Different profession) Ranger suits me much better because ... I like to play in the woods. I'm still a Satyr, so I'm still flirty, and drink a lot, and sing to myself, but now I don't have to make myself compete with all of the other amazing musicians in KR.

I promise myself that when I eventually create an alternate character, that it will be the OPPOSITE of myself. I'm thinking someone cruel, and selfish, and wicked, and possibly Dark-Elvey. But we'll see. I only hope that I won't start to slip into "Craig-ness" with a character like that, and wind up with a friendly hard-drinking Dark Elf Ranger that likes to flirt. [sigh]

But one of these days, I will play my polar opposite. But as for my current character, I just love him too much to give up!