Mike,
I'm John, one of the safety marshals.
Rest assured, there are many here who are cool with intense RP and commentary said during such scenes and there are those who have issue with it and that's cool.
If something is going on that is messing with you mentally, say something or afterward, pull yourself out of game for a spell. I've done it as have a few others...
Bottom line, there is no shame in doing so and absolutely no one should give you grief over it and if they do, they just don't get it & likely never will. Its a "Them Problem", to paraphrase one of the marshals, and not yours.
Father Duncan MacKenzie
Templar-High Priest of Brazen
Chaplain, Bloodspirits Mercenary Company
Janos Beecham (alt)
Dragoon of No Importance
John Tinney
Safety Marshal/ EMT